Got this forwardrd by one of my besties. It really is worth to read.

 Disclaimer: The content does not resemble what I feel. I'm a happily engaged girl who's gonna get married by the end of the year :P

  
Source: The Manila Times

  
In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with ... and the one that got away.

 Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong.There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

 I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little necessities of giddy romance.

 How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequential become deal-breakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's justthat it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

 Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

 So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want and more you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come.

 Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, youcould be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about. You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?"

 That's what the one that got away is. The biggest; "What if?"; you'll have in your life. If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright.

 It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens. Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case, it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future; when you're old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it's different.

 What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee; ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

 You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

When I joined this office, I was given an Acer laptop. There's a fracture on the top-case, and I've made sure that the IT team saw it during hand-over so they won't claim that I made it broken.

 8 months later, the left part of the top-case was about to fell off. A lot worse than when I got it the first time. So the office is getting me a new laptop. While waiting for it to come, I got a netbook to use.

 I get the advantage of having a light laptop, and how easy it is to bring it here & there. What I don't get is how can you feel convenient using it? I've been using it for only 2 days and my neck is already in pain, not to mention my back. Because of the small screen, I have to have my head close to it, enough for me to stare and notice details & spellings. Obviously then my back is arched, then well... try doing that for at least 6 hours a day.

 I've tried changing the resolution to be 800x600, doesn't really help much. Still not clear enough to read from a normal distance.

 So... Tell me, what would be the main purpose of anyone who's buying a netbook?

If there's anything I like about my Blackberry, it'd be the fact that I can go online for an unlimited time AND quota for a flat price. The UI is ugly, I need to do extra work just to do the simplest things. Sometimes I really miss my Treo. I want an iPhone. But it's just damn expensive in Indonesia.

I didn't realize how much I've missed blogging until I got all hyped when I got an email saying that my latest entry got comments hahaha I would never deny that I'm one hell of an attention-seeker & a true drama queen.

 Work has been a roller coaster. Although I keep wondering if this is something I'd like to do in a long term. The agency that I'm working for does pretty much everything, ATL & BTL. Just 2 weeks ago I experienced my first BTL project & boy it was one hell of fun. The deadline was crazy, the preparation seemed to make everyone went haywire. I noticed then how people cope with stress. One colleague dealt by sleeping, another by singing, then there's another one who talked to herself & making the funniest comments at the most inappropriate time.

 I made funny movements. I prefer to call it dancing, but it's too weird to be called dancing.

 But all in all we're one solid team. 8 people that prepared one huge event which cost billions of Rupiah & managed to gain more than 10,000 visitors. I think I should be proud of my team.

 As I was saying though, I don't know if I want to do this in the next 5 years. I just told my bestfriend yesterday that I'm feeling "jompo", my body just don't have the same amount energy as it used to. Back then I'd quickly say yes if my friends asked me to hangout somewhere in the middle of the night. Yesterday they asked if I would join them to watch jazz at 10 PM.

 All I could think of was my bed. And the comfy pillows.

 So, "jompo" it is.

 I'll continue this later. Typing in a moving car tends to make me feel dizzy.

Most of the times it feels like waiting for a mistake to happen. It's a constant test of loyalty. For every other name he mentioned, I quickly make a scenario of what I'm going to do or say if that other name turns to be significant. I promised myself that I will not be stupid this time. That if he decides to go for it, I'll let go. I won't just stay there all dumbfounded & waiting for it to be over.
 
Trauma kills. I realize how unfair it is to compare 2 people who seem to be so different from one another. But how do you actually let go? How can you be so sure that it won't happen again? 4.5 years with so many other names. And now 8 months with 1 anonymous girl whom he swore he had nothing to do with. How do you create that trust? How do you know that this time things will be okay?
 
Making a life commitment is scary.